Lisa Marie Garbo aka BBW Bunny Britney Cont.

Ok… so… (deep breaths) I knew that speaking out against Lisa Marie Garbo would come with some backlash from her drones… Lisa Marie would never contact me herself unless she was calling me from a blocked number and screaming profanities on the other end as soon as I answered the phone. I have gotten a lot of mail mostly commending me for standing up for what’s right, but some trying to air out my own personal laundry.

The thing that strikes me funny about people who lash out in anger or defense is that they don’t think rationally. When I set out to bring the “real” Lisa Marie to light it wasn’t out of hate or anger. I thought about what I was going to say for days before I wrote about it. I want it to be very clear that I’m not judging Lisa Marie for what she has done because I have done the same things. The fact is is that I stand up and applaud anyone who changes their life for the better, even Lisa Marie, and speaks up for the greater good when the person who is speaking up is speaking up selflessly and not for personal gain.

I give Lisa Marie credit for Club Bounce, once upon a time it was truly a place for BBW’s to go and feel comfortable being big and beautiful. It seems that the more popular Club Bounce became the less it became about BBW’s and the more it became just another popular night club. If Lisa Marie was truly in it for the people why has she raised the cover charge? Lisa Marie is more worried about lining her pockets and being in the media than she is about her patrons. The economy is in the tank and yet she knows her club is gonna have patrons so why not make a little extra to pay for that new publicist.

Now I’m not saying that I don’t have my own checkered past. I’m not saying that I am better nor worse than anyone, but I can say that everything I have done I’ve done whole heatedly and have taken accountability for my choices. I make no apologies for who or what I am nor am I ashamed of anything that I have done. Someone wrote a comment to the previous post, which I denied because it was written in all caps, trying to put my VERY personal business on front street and I think that’s just tacky. I did not or would not put ANYONE’S private business out for the world to see. The things that I have brought to light have already been put out on the internet, but have since been swept under the rug.

I’m not putting myself in the public eye claiming to be the voice of BBW’s. I am, however, taking a stand against someone who has wronged so many for her own personal gain. In my opinion if you want to be a public “personality” than be real. If you are a good person with good intentions and have others best interest in mind then no one will care what you have done in your past. The only time that there is ever an issue is when someone is not who they claim to be. Like I’ve said before… I applaud those who have changed for the better, but will not stand for those who speak down on others who are where you came from.

Lisa Marie Garbo aka BBW Bunny Britney

Today I sent a little note to the Dr. Phil Show letting them know that they are about to place one of the biggest hypocrites in the BBW community on their show. Here’s the note:

“You have a guest by the name of Lisa Marie Garbo coming up on an upcoming show. She has self proclaimed herself as the “Power Plus Woman” stating the she represents the plus sized community. She also states that she denounces any plus size woman working in the adult/porn industry.

It needs to be brought to the shows attention that Lisa Marie Garbo herself was an adult model and was quite active in the adult industry so far as to even run her own xxx website.

This woman is a hypocrite and should not be allowed to go on national television and represent the plus size, BBW, community.”

Now, if you’re not familiar with Lisa Marie Garbo aka BBW Bunny Britney, she is the promoter of a BBW night club in Long Beach called Club Bounce. I met Lisa Marie a couple of years ago when I first went to her club and for some reason something about her never set right with me. I later came to find out it was because she is an evil little creature. It had honestly been many moons since I had met someone, in my opinion, so self admiring, rude, back stabbing and hypocritical.

Lisa Marie was even brazen enough to ban me from the club after I posted the following article on Myspace as a public service.

Shooting, stabbing at L.B. club may be related

Article from:

Press-Telegram Long Beach, CA.

Article date:

March 1, 2008

Author:

// Hanna Chu

LONG BEACH – A man was shot and a female was stabbed in possibly related incidents early Saturday, authorities said.

A male adult victim was allegedly approached by a group of male blacks and shot in the parking lot outside a club at about 1:45 a.m., said LBPD Officer Jackie Bezart.

The incident apparently originated at Club Bounce, 6285 E. Pacific Coast Highway, then moved into the parking lot.

About an hour later in the same vicinity, a female Hispanic victim was approached by a group of female blacks and stabbed.

Both victims were transported to local hospitals with non-life- threatening wounds, Bezart said.

No suspect information was available.

“Nothing indicates that it’s gang-related,” Bezart said.

No further information was available.

hanna.chu@presstelegram.com, 562-499-1476

Lisa Marie has since ban an entire population of people that she doesn’t like for no other reason than she doesn’t like them. Please believe that if you speak against her or the club, she will ban you and spread vicious rumors like a middle school child. She has to be one of the most immature women I have ever met, it’s like she has yet to make it past high school.

When it came to my attention that she has taken it upon herself to represent the BBW community, I was furious to say the least. WHO is she to represent anyone? She has denounced an entire industry in which she was and is still a part of! It is safe to say that this woman makes me sick. She has gone to extreme measures to remove all of her adult content from the internet but just to show you I’m telling the truth here are a few images I’ve kept.

Lisa Marie also ran a popular BBW XXX site, bbwbunnies.com. You can look up the domain on WHOIS and find out all of the info on who owns the domain. She has recently removed all of the original content and replaced it with a generic affiliate store… smh!

Some people would wonder why I care to call her out or what it is that I have against her… well, I’ll tell you this. I truly believe that ALL people should be free to make their own choices in life and that they should never be judged for what choices those may be. I also believe that you should be held accountable for the choices that you make even if those choices have negative repercussions. Any coward can run away and try to hide evidence, it takes a REAL woman to stand up and take responsibility for her actions. I believe that the woman self proclaiming herself the voice of BBW’s should be ashamed of herself and come clean about her checkered past.

*** The information given about Lisa Marie Garbo is from personal accounts and public knowledge. This blog was not written in malice but as a public service to the bbw community. Lisa Marie has made herself into a “public figure” and should be held accountable for her actions. If you choose to place yourself in the public eye you should be prepared for the skeletons to fall out of the closet. If Ms. California should be held accountable for her past endeavors, why should a shameless club promoter be any different? ***

*** ALL comments will be approved except those written in all caps! ***

Haters… Gotta have ’em!

Haters have been a topic on everyone’s convo list since the dawn of time. Just as much as we all need supporters, we need haters. I think as there is yin and yang, heaven and hell or fat and skinny… there is love and hate. It is all a balance and even though it is hard to understand why we need people to hate on us, it really is to our benefit.

Now, for some unknown reason, I have more haters than most… lol… but I am totally ok with it and this is why…

99.9% of people that hate on me, really have no idea who I am as a person. They have made the decision to hate on me because they don’t approve of my career, lifestyle, weight, cleavage, hair color or just because they caught their man lookin my way, lol… j/k… well, kinda! Maybe someone met me out at an event and felt put off that I didn’t pay them enough attention or because I had a bit too much to drink and was happily over flirtatious… oh, oh… then there is my personal favorite reason that people hate on me… because their friend does, aaahahahahahaha! Seriously folks, when is it time to grow up and leave high school behind?

Even though people find ridiculous reasons to hate on me, I truly don’t mind. I figure if you are lovingly supporting me or viciously hating on me, I am obviously on your mind. In my world, there is no such thing as bad publicity so feel free to talk about me in any fashion you like. I can’t tell you how many times I have had people make an effort to meet me because they heard a group of haters talking about me and had to find out what I was like for themselves.

Haters also help to keep me on my toes. I LOVE a challenge so if someone has something negative to say about me, especially when they don’t know me, I get crazy excited to rise to the occasion! We all need to be pushed at times to step up our game and, for me, haters are a driving force. I also at times enjoy a good story about myself, lol! How many of you have heard a story about yourself that has been completely fabricated? Well, I have and I find it uber amusing because there are so many true stories to tell that I’m flattered someone has taken the time to create one!

Like I said previously, it’s all about balance and as people we need more balance in our lives. So in closing I urge you to embrace your haters and appreciate them for their contribution to the balance in your life. Don’t take anything anyone says about you to heart. If you are a confident individual you already know the truth about yourself so nothing anyone could say or do to you should be able to impact you in a negative way. Take the good out of every situation and leave the rest!

As always, I appreciate all of your love and support… thank you for allowing me to be me!

Denied by ADULTCON! – Update

Adultcon is taking place as I write this and one thing is perfectly clear… I’m not there nor will I be in attendance this weekend. It has never been more clear that Adulcon doesn’t want BBW’s participating in this event… here’s an update! http://adultfyi.com/read.php?ID=31677

My day…

Today was kind of an odd day with many emotional ups and downs. I woke up a bit anxious and immediately started cleaning the kitchen. After finishing the kitchen it was time to get ready for my scene with Christian with a trip to the nail salon. I always LoVe going to the nail salon, the foot massages are my favorite! After getting pampered at the salon I had to rush back home to shower and make it to the set.

I was the first one to arrive on set, and I was late, I ended up waiting outside for about 20 mins before someone showed up to let me in. The make-up artist was a super cool chick, and again I LoVe hair and make-up because I feel pampered! The scene with Christian was amazing, as always… blog post to follow soon, but afterwords was kind of a downer.

After the scene, Christian drove me home and I was telling him about my recent break-up… lol, he told me to stop telling him the story because it was depressing. Since the break-up was so emotional for me it got me to thinking about my childhood, growing up in foster care still affects me today. I really started thinking about how sometimes we, as people, just want to be loved. I have no real family, my friends are my family, so sometimes I think I may have settled for less than I deserved out of pure loneliness.

I never thought I would admit that I was lonely or just wanted to be loved, but if I didn’t I wouldn’t be being honest. I’m just blessed for what I do have in my life and that is good friends and a GREAT job, lol!

Meds & Sex!

Have you ever had to take a prescription and one of the side effects was ‘loss of sexual appetite’? I have, and I must say… it sucks ass!Currently I am taking medicine that doesn’t necessarily curb my sexual appetite, but it makes it very difficult for me to climax. Now, I’m not sure what’s worse not wanting it at all or wanting it and having a hard time making it to the finish line… ugh! Now for a sex addict like me… that’s just not the business! All I know is I’d almost rather lose my left arm than the use of my clit… I’m just sayin, lol! (of course I’m right handed)

Taking away sex for me is like trying to get a junkie off of heroin! So… if ya’ll have any ideas on how to counter act the meds then please… HOLLA at your gurl! ;o}

Go figure…

Is it just my imagination or do the laws of the universe really work against us? I have been looking back over the last 7 or so years and have come to discover that either my timing absolutely sucks or the universe is working against me. Now I can’t imagine that it’s all me, lol… totally kidding, it’s most likely all me… but I’d like to think that the universe has something to do with it.

It’s like when you want to have a nice lunch alone in a park and then an entire family plops down beside you on the bench… or when you make plans to go on a cruise and you come down flu the day before you’re supposed to leave. It happens when someone finds love… lol, you can be single for years upon years and once you are in love people from your past come out of the woodwork to be with you. For me I find that when I plan on focusing on work it’s slow and when I have things to do in my personal life, I’m overwhelmed with it.

I suppose at the end of the day life works out in the way it’s supposed to… maybe teaching us something we didn’t know we needed to learn. I like to think that everything happens for a reason, even if I don’t understand what the reasoning is. I would also like to think that I am in the driver’s seat of my own life but as time goes by I sometimes feel like I’m just along for the ride. Maybe my timing is off or maybe the universe is trying to tell me something that I’m not yet able to see.

Out of control…

There are so many things in this world that are totally out of our control. So… why is it that even though we know that we have no control, we continue to stress? Obviously no person has control over another, people do what they are gonna do regardless. We have no control over the weather, it’ll be hot as hell even if we wish for rain. Little asian women are gonna cut me off on the freeway no matter what, so why get so mad?

I never thought of myself as a control “freak”, but I am starting to notice I have unpleasant tendencies. I have always been in control of my life and what goes on around me because I limited the activity that I had and the people who had access to me so that I didn’t have to deal with much chaos. However, in limiting my surroundings I limited my chances for happiness and for experiencing new things. I have always been the type of person that thinks people should be allowed to be who they are, no matter what anyone thinks… however, I am noticing that sometimes I don’t totally accept that because they are not doing something my way… lol, how hypocritical is that?

I currently am finding it difficult to let go of my obvious “illusion” of control. I very much know that there is no way possible that I have any control over another persons actions… so why am I upset? I feel so stupid because I consider myself a pretty logical person, but there is NO logic in this issue. Realistically trying to control the world is like trying to hold on to air. I’m sure I’m not the only idiot alive pissed off about shit I have no control over, but even as I sit here and write this blog I’m at a loss as to why I am so irritated… suck ass!

Misunderstood…

Have you ever attempted to do something with nothing but the best intentions in mind and it completely backfired because you were totally misunderstood? Yeah… me too! I can honestly say that because I am not the average chick, I am often misunderstood. I didn’t grow up under “normal” circumstances, I’ve experienced far to many abnormal events to even be able to grasp the concept of “normal”! Therefore I live, love, act, react and process things in a manner that most people can’t understand. I am always 100% honest because that’s the only way I know how to be, but sometimes it also causes me to be a bit too blunt.

Sometimes I feel like a walking disaster, like nothing I do comes across in the manner that I intend it to. FUCK… I know what I mean… why can’t everyone else know what I mean? I try my best to stand outside of myself and look at things from a variety of different perspective before I make any kind of decision. I won’t lie, I have been known to make a bad judgement call now and then but luckily they seem to be few and far between… lol, but when I screw up, I screw up BIG! I try to be cautious with the words I choose and the way I come off to people so that they will look at me the same way I look at them… with an open mind. Come on now… I know I’m a bit different, but that’s me and I can only be who I am just as I expect you to be who you are… no more, no less.

I have recently had a brief laps in judgement do to a misunderstanding… I had thought that everyone was on the same page but come to find out I must have been reading the wrong book. Now in this specific situation it’s already a difficult situation that requires a sensitive touch. God knows I try my best to be sensitive and careful but sometimes without realizing it at the time, I fail miserably. Hurting people or causing any kind of drama is not, nor ever has been “my thing”, but I am human and I do make mistakes. Sitting here right now I feel like a schmuck that, with the best intentions in mind, has once again opened her mouth… inserted foot and continued to knee! Lol, seriously I would hate me if I didn’t know me in this instance.

I am a bright individual, I seem to be pretty observant, I generally have a good, solid head on my shoulders… how is it that I can manage to be so inconsiderate while trying to be just the opposite? Hmmm… food for thought! Now the questions that seem to being running through my head are how would I or even could I fix it. Should I just leave it alone and crawl under a rock, cause that’s really what I wanna do… or should I apologize and try to explain what I meant in a better way, cause that could end up in verbal vomit and I could easily make things worse than they already are… again, on accident!

I wish there was some kind of book that told you exactly what to do in every circumstance that left NO room for misinterpretation. I wish I could just say I apologize, without having to explain what I apologize for. I wish my way of thinking was more relatable and I wish that bad situations were easier to handle. But in the end it is what it is and we are who we are… I accept that I am and may always be misunderstood.

DRAMA!

I got a call today that made me want to talk about this subject. Throughout my youth I grew with a lot of turmoil and drama… because of that I have worked VERY hard in my adult life to remain drama free. Most of the time I have been able to stay steadfast on my drama free path but every now and then I come across a bump in my road. Now, the funny thing is that most drama that I encounter has nothing to do with me, lol, however it may involve me but usually without my knowledge! I seem to be the topic of many conversations and generally by the time it gets back to me someone is in an uproar.

I also find that most people that complain about how much drama there is, are usually the people that are  waste deep in the middle of it all. Most people involved in the BBW community knows that there is a lot of drama and they usually chose early on whether they want to avoid the drama or they dive right into the muddle. There are, however, some people that get caught up in all the ugliness but quickly realize that they would rather act in a mature manner and distance themselves. Personally, I have been caught up a time or 2… I will not deny it, but I am one that quickly realizes that it’s not for me.

The other HILARIOUS thing that I notice is that women that are old enough to be my mothers have THE MOST drama. I have wondered if it’s because maybe life gets less exciting as they get older so they have to create drama as their spice of life, lol! Me though, I can’t image life getting anything but more exciting so I really don’t get it. There are soooo many things that I want to do and see that I really can’t imagine having the time to harass someone through blogs and vicious gossip or go out of my way to spread lies and rumors about someone… lol, especially since the truth is usually better!

As human beings we all have relationships that end badly, but for most of us, we pick up the pieces and MOVE ON. I have noticed that some people lack the ability to move forward regardless if it’s with their hairstyle, personal style, relationships or even from traumatic events. I have news for you folks… life doesn’t stop because you get stuck. Life continues to move forward and evolve even if you can’t seem to keep up with it. I have been stuck many times throughout my life and I can’t tell you how much it sucks to watch the world around you go on as you sit and fester in your own pity.

I am a true believer in karma and I truly believe that you get back what you put out. I make a conscience decision on a daily basis to stay positive and refrain from the drama. Life is far too short to be surrounded by all the negative. There are so many bad things in this world that we have no control over, however, we can control our own thoughts and actions. Imagine what life would be like if we took all of the negative and turned it into positive…