What I feel right now, in this moment, can best be expressed by one of my all time favorite poems:
Reason, Season, or Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
My life has had it’s fair share of peaks and valley’s and I have cried until I’ve laughed and laughed until I have cried… they say that tears cleanse the soul, so my soul should be squeaky clean, LOL!
As of late I have had to do some serious reflection and make some extremely difficult decisions for my life. Recently a friend said that what’s good for you, and what is right for you, is not always easy for you and it rang so true. For me it seems like I always have to do things the hard way… it’s just my way I guess. Relationships have not always been easy for me as I have a lot of flaws and am not always the easiest person to handle. I have had my spells of depression and my quick Irish/Italian temper has caused some issues but mostly it is my lack of trust and faith in people. I try to hope for the best but in the back of my mind I am always expecting the worst.
I LoVe the poem above so much because it really puts a positive spin on all types of relationships… no matter why a person comes into your life there is always a lesson that you are supposed to learn behind it. Even when things go horribly wrong there is something positive that can be taken from experience. I strongly believe that each person that we come in contact with is a person that was meant to be there at the exact time… our lives are like a puzzle and each person, relationship, experience is a piece of that puzzle. It is odd how when I reflect on all of my interactions, there has been someone that has come into my life at the precise time I needed them. Those experience may not have turned out how I had intended but I can honestly say that I am grateful for each and every person.
Someone a while ago came into my life that pulled me through a rough patch and helped me to see the light through the darkness. For me I felt like they saved me and I will be eternally grateful. Hopefully one day when I have reached a place where I am emotional rock I can be someone else’s guiding light, though that may take some time. I wish I could say that I am strong and stable… that I have no fear of falling back into the darkness, but I would be a liar… I am not. I struggle often to think of the positive when I am surrounded by the negative… to see the finish line over the hurdles… or to pick myself up and look towards success after failure.
I am taking the next step in my journey of life and for the first time in a long while I am taking it alone. There are many, many things that I would like to do and try and some of these things I have to experience on my own. A very long time ago I was a strong, independent, confident, self assured woman who made the impossible possible. I had a life experience that changed that for me and made me feel like I couldn’t go it alone anymore, that I couldn’t make it without some type of crutch. Through time and A LOT of self reflection I feel that I am slowly but surely becoming the woman that I used to be… that I really was all along but just couldn’t see in the dark.
In closing I want to thank everyone who has come into my life for a reason, a season or for a lifetime. A special thanks to Andy and Samantha for being my anchor… through all the years of ups and downs you have been there and I LoVe you for it more than you will ever know… I am eternally grateful. For those of you who ave entered my life for a reason or a season, thank you for your piece of my puzzle and your contribution to who I am today. Lifers… you know who you are… thank you for accepting me for me and never judging… thank you for sharing your lives with me, I’m blessed to be a part of it… but mostly thank you for always being there, no matter what… I LoVe you guys!