Category Archives: Work

Busy as a BEE!

So much has been happening and I know I need to blog more, it just seems like I struggle to find the time. The last part of this year has been so amazing for me, I can hardly believe it. I have so much going on and all of the puzzle pieces are finally starting to fall into place. I’ll go down the list of projects I’ve been working on and you’ll see where my time has gone.

  1. BBWcon – SO much time has gone into getting this event set up just the way I want it for 2015. I’m so excited that it’s all coming together. So much has changed since BBW FanFest and I want to make sure this event goes off without a hitch. Get your ticket today at!
  2. Sinfully Divine Entertainment – Our new production company has been moving along slowly but surely. It takes a lot of work, and a lot of money, to put all the pieces of this together. We’re in the final stages of getting our billing processor set up and our contract for studio space should be complete by the beginning of December! YAY!
  3. Sin City Bounty – I have been considering becoming a host on the online radio show so I am going to take the month of November for a trial run! I’m really looking forward to getting to talk about everything going on and finding out what everyone else is up to. Listen LIVE every Sunday at 7pm PST via
  4. I L♥ve EveryBODY! – I have been assisting in the start up of a new body positive campaign and I couldn’t be more thrilled. The #dontshameitslame campaign will officially launch in January of 2015 with a series of photos depicting pairs of people with opposite body types. I can’t wait! Go like the I L♥ve EveryBODY! Facebook page now!
  5. Printing 4 Pets – I’m still working on getting my NPO off the ground. It too is extremely time consuming and expensive, but worth every bit of time and money. If you need some high quality bulk printing email me for the lowest rates around.
  6. Photo Booth Rental – We decided to add a photo booth kiosk to our business portfolio. I’m so excited to get this project off the ground… what could be MORE fun than seeing tons of people taking silly photos at all kinds of different events? If you are in Vegas and need a photo booth at your next event email me at for more details

76_2B3g7There are a few more things going on, but I don’t want to blow my wad all at once, lol. I think the best news for you guys is that soon I will be returning to the net with a whole new series of fetish content. I am really looking forward to letting my creative juices flow! If you have any scene scenarios, please feel free to email them to me. OH… and I cut off all my hair! I hope you love it as much as I do.

Until next time… much love!

I’m Baaack… kinda!

logoSo here’s the scoop! I am back in the adult business, but not in the same way as before. I am still retired from XXX modeling, though I may dip my foot back into the fetish model pool at some point – who knows, but I have returned on the other side of the camera. My amazing man and I have married our talents, him a cinematographer and I an adult entertainer, and have birthed our very own production company… Sinfully Divine Entertainment. This venture is brand new, but we have already started shooting content and are scouting for studio location around downtown Las Vegas. Exciting!!!

As part of Sinfully Divine Ent. we have teamed up with RPX After Dark to bring you some of the hottest solo site on the market. There will be a variety of options available to models including a 50/50 split option, low cost pay in full option and several payment plan options to fit your budget. The 50/50 split option will include content production, webmastering and marketing as well.

logo_bbwconAdditionally, I have entered back into the land of events. In 2012 & 2013 we brought you BBW FanFest and in 2015 we will bring you BBWcon! The official BBWcon announcement won’t be made until August 1st, so stay tuned to find out all the awesome details!

On the agenda is also the launching of BBW Hunnies! BBW Hunnies is a model management company formed and run by successful active and retired models. BBWH-LogoWe’re excited to have the experience of veterans like Farrah Foxx and the new visions of models like Sashaa Juggs to guide our endeavors. At BBWH we will help models find paid work as well as assisting with image makeovers, independent sites, self marketing and production, as well as teaching models about copyright laws and other need to know info about the adult industry. There has never before been a company that was formed to mentor girls in this industry. We have formed an extensive collaboration to pool resources and provide models, male and female, with the most valuable information available to date. We WILL NOT do the work for you, but if you want to learn how to be successful, we can guide you.

10565282_793241027377404_7582657812919395789_nI couldn’t be more excited to be in this position. It took me a long while to decide what I wanted to do, or even to decide if I wanted to separate myself from the adult world ALL together. I’ve had many discussions and have developed what I think to be THE BEST team of people to bring these visions to life.

Special thanks to for sponsoring BBWcon 2015. It wouldn’t be possible without you!



Kelly Shibari’s “Open Letter to Any Plus Size Women Wanting to Get into XXX”

My posts these days are few and far between, as my life has changed in vast ways, but I wanted to share this specific post. It’s long yet informative. Kelly Shibari and I have not always seen eye to eye, but she has a lot of good knowledge about our industry.

Though I don’t necessarily agree with everything Kelly has written, I agree with the premise. XXX is a brutal industry that will forever alter your future. If you are not FULLY equipped with the facts, then you should NOT go down the XXX road. If you are looking to get into the industry because you want the attention, great, but know that attention comes at a price. If you are not prepared to pay the price, move along.

One thing that is important to note is that the industry has changed greatly. We are no longer in the internet BOOM. There are so many free porn sites it’s ridiculous and people no longer pay for solo sites unless you have something unique that people simply can’t find elsewhere, which is a rarity.

If you chose the adult path after you are fully aware of what it entails, then I wish you ALL the luck in the world. It will not be an easy path and it will require a lot of hard work if you want it to be profitable. In my career I made a lot of money, but I also started back when more companies shot BBW and the market had not yet been saturated. I also escorted and was a pro domme for many years, which is where I made the bulk of my money. Porn gave me a name and allowed me to charge more for my time. I do not for a second regret my career in the adult industry and though I am a retired performer I still have a fondness for the industry itself and I may not be done. Adult work has made a lot of great things in my life possible, but it has come with its fair share of drama as well.

I wish you all the best in whatever decision you choose.

An Open Letter to Any Plus Size Women Wanting to Get into XXX

June 3, 2014 at 9:01am

I receive a lot of letters, FB messages, Twitter posts and DMs from plus size ladies wishing to get into the adult industry. I’ve responded to each in a similar way, but the letter below combines all of them in one place – (1) to save me time responding to each letter, and (2) because the response is the same 99% of the time:


I really cannot assist anyone trying to get into the adult industry.
There simply is not enough work in this industry, especially as a BBW, to make this a career. It doesn’t pay your bills. It just won’t.
In addition, when you ever decide to retire, you will have “former adult performer” in your background – which, before the Internet, wasn’t an issue. But now, it’s a very real issue. You won’t be able to get “real world” work unless you only work as a freelance worker. You’ll never be able to get a corporate job, be able to work in any line of work that involves people under the age of 18, and you’ll be stigmatized. You’ll lose your “friends,” potentially your family, and even the people in the industry who will pretend to be your “friends” to get you in? Trust me – it’s a means to get themselves work. The minute you start getting more work without them? You’ll be ignored, hated, and cast aside. It’s all about competition and ego, you see – you’re an asset if you can help THEM get work (“We can do a scene together!” is nothing more than “If I can bring you to so-and-so company, it means I can get work too!”). The minute you can’t, they could care less about you.
I say this not as a way to be mean. I’m just being honest.
Out of the many, MANY plus size performers who are, and were, in the industry, how many do you know? How many are in the press? How many appear to have “made it?” 2? 3? Would it surprise you to know that out of those few, ALL of them do not make a living out of JUST being an adult performer? That ALL of us actually pay our bills by doing other work? The girls who do make money living off of adult performing as plus size performers – they do so because they also escort.
The going rate for most plus size performing work:
Solo – $150 – $200
G/G – $200 – $300
B/G – $300 – $400
Most plus size companies don’t even bother with anything beyond these kinds of scenes. Most plus size companies will try to get you to do multiple scenes as a package deal – 1 solo, 1 blow job scene, 1 B/G scene – for $500 – $600 flat. If you break it down, you see how little you’re making per scene. And they won’t pay for travel or lodging.
On top of that, the average lifespan of work in xxx for plus size performers is less than 6 months. The reason? There aren’t that many legitimate companies in the industry who do plus size porn (4? 5 tops?)…and with the number of girls available, and coming in, and the sheer nature of porn as a whole being the desire to have variety – the fact is, once you’ve made your rounds to do a set of scenes for each company, they won’t want/need you again for another few months, if ever. You can’t depend on that sort of irregular income stream to pay bills.
Membership sites do not make money. I personally do not own one for this very reason. Most plus size adult performers with membership sites make $50-$100 a month – and that’s after putting in the effort to turn out photo sets, video updates, every single week. You spend more money than you make. My PaddedKINK site, that won awards? It made $300-$400 a month at its height – and it was all created with content trade shoots. It made just enough to pay for itself, and nothing in the way of profit – which means it didn’t pay my living expenses. Not even close.
Merchandising? What sort of merchandising? Branded sex toys make us about 2-10% commission per unit sold – which, again, makes less than $100 a month if you’re lucky. Most companies don’t pay for the initial branding buyout – it’s assumed it’s a branding win/win. You only make money if a product sells – and a commission from that. If a product sells for $30, and you’re only making $3 commission per unit at 10%, and $0.60 at 2% – you can do the math. It’s not like you’re selling thousands of units per month either, giving the current economic climate. And how many “branded” products by plus size performers do you know?
The work I’m currently doing – the work everyone is talking about – is a result of 7 years of work, of not being able paying my bills, of cashing out my IRA, of living in rented rooms rather than houses. It’s ALL branding. It’s not profit. Trust me on this. The reason I can even afford to do things and travel to conventions, etc, is because of the PR and Marketing work I do. That’s what pays my bills, and how I can live the way I do these days.
Don’t get me wrong – I love the work I do. But the returns of my investment isn’t financial. I’ve lost friends. I’ve had a hard time dating. I also know I’m an anomaly – I have a supportive family, and I’ve always been freelance. I’ve never had to deal with corporate shame. But I’ve also been through my personal hell on other levels that I’ll rarely let show to the public – though I’m now stronger for it.
If I only relied on my performing work? I’d be homeless.
My current performing rate has gone up to be similar to mainstream girls only after 7 years of work, and proving to companies that I will put in the time and effort to promote every project they put me in. My worth isn’t just from performing – it’s my added PR and Marketing background and exposure. It’s a lot of additional, unpaid work to make it worth it for companies to invest the extra money in me to even be considered for the same rate as mainstream performers. And even at that? I do maybe 3 films a year.
Sorry for the blunt nature of this letter. But people see what adult performers do, the media attention they get, are inspired to do the same – and I have to be honest about the reality of the work.
If you’re interested in gaining confidence, please do so with photo shoots for your own collection. Maybe try some webcamming to see how that might be – it’ll be a great way to see the ROI on the work you put in to entertain fans. If after that, you want to try to get into xxx, please go in knowing all of the inherent risks – and that it might be more about work, and your life during and after it, than it ever will be about STDs.
Good luck.

Shooting for BBW Buffet!

Today I did my first shoot with Reenaye Starr for! It was the first time I have done a shoot for a feeder site, but I had a good time! I REALLY enjoyed working with Reenaye and her business partner. I also had a lot of fun doing my sets with Platinum Puzzy… it was at some points VERY difficult to keep a straight face, lol!

Here’s a pic that was taken by Platinum of Reenaye shooting me… good times!

I’m not sure when the first set will be posted on the site, but I will definitely keep y’all up to date.

I am heading off in the morning to shoot for! It’s been quite awhile since I last shot for them, but I’m sure it’ll be fun… I’ll post a pic from the shoot on my twitter so make sure you check in…!

As always… thank you all SO MUCH for all of your LoVe and support! TTYS

East Coast Tour 2012

If you’re wondering if the rumors are true about Platinum Puzzy and I doing an East Coast Tour are true or not, let me help clarify… YES, it’s true! Plat and I have teamed up once again and are making our way up the East Coast. We are starting off our tour here in Jacksonville, Fl and eventually ending back in Las Vegas, with MANY stops along the way! I am going to list the first half of the dates below for the month of August and later I will post an update with September dates.

August 2012 Dates

1-3 Jacksonville, FL
3-5 Tampa, FL
5-8 Ft. Lauderdale/Miami
8-10 Orlando, FL
10-14 Atlanta, GA
14-17 Raleigh/Durham, NC
17-21 Norfolk, VA
21-31 DC/NY

For scheduling, calendar, Q&A and donation information please refer to!

For booking please email me at
Two girl sessions and discounts for extended time is available.

The map below shows all the cities we will stop in, cross-country dates are to be determined and will be posted within the next week.

We look forward to seeing you during our travels!


Yup, the title says it all! For the first time in convention history, BBW FanFest is allowing models to attend the BBW FanFest Trade show via life-sized banners! You will see in the flyer below that the cost for the Virtual Attendance is ONLY $99 and that includes: Free standing life-sized banner, 500 custom designed business cards, your information listed in the BBW FanFest event program, photos of fans with your banner taken by our staff photographer, your provided video promo played live on screens throughout the trade show and appearances of your banner during our live event streaming.

For girls who cannot afford to attend the trade show this year, this is the perfect solution. When the trade show is over we can ship the banners, auction them off, give them away or whatever each model chooses to do with their own  individual banner.

The only downside to this option is that we didn’t think of it sooner and to fulfill printing deadlines we need to have all orders in NO LATER than June 30th! It’s last minute, I know, but it will be more than worth it to have your presence at the show!

Photos need to be full body, high-resolution (minimum 150 dpi, recommended 300 dpi) and be full color. Please submit all inquiries and/or orders via email to

Reppin BBW!

Since I have been getting back into the swing of things and have been becoming more involved in the BBW world I have noticed a lot of things that have just really, for lack of a better term, repulsed me. Now these are just things that I have observed and experienced personally. The things I will talk about in this blog will be based solely on my own personal views and opinions. This blog will offend a few, but hey… honestly is my policy! I’ll say it right off the top… I’m not trying to be a bitch or insult anyone, I’m just describing my observations and sharing my opinions. With that said… let’s do this!

First and foremost I recognize that the world looks at the BBW industry as a niche. I also understand that most companies are mainstream and therefore focus their attention on the skinny, mainstream models. Because of this the quality of mainstream work is much better and sets the bar to very high standards. There are a few companies in the BBW realm who have met those mainstream standards, Sensational Video and Score just to name a couple, and they noticeably continuously strive for better. The majority of the other companies that shoot BBW content definitely do not even attempt to compete with mainstream standards as it’s just simply not in the budget.

With knowing that BBW is already looked at in such a way that it’s hardly recognized as a legitimate part of the industry makes me that much more adamant that the people who represent for the industry should do so in a fashion that holds up to the mainstream standards. Let me give a few examples, for instance… since a picture is worth a thousand words, below is an example of something people might remember for mainstream and then from BBW. Now which one would leave a lasting impression for you? The skinny girl who dressed like a Canary or the big broad who DIDN’T WEAR SHOES on the red carpet? I think the answer is clear.

Example #2
I recently attended an event where vendors where promoting and selling various things as I came across a booth that was promoting for an event concerning BBW models and what not. Now when I think of BBW models I think of pretty girls looking there absolute best. I think of outfits, hair, makeup and fun accessories… so imagine my dismay when I walked up to the booth and saw the organizer running it wearing a night-gown (I knew it instantly as I have the same one) with messy hair and no makeup. Really??? Is that the quality of model you want to show the world is going to be attending your event? My mother has more style and I don’t think she’s changed her hair or wore a stitch of makeup in over 20 years! Come on now…

Example #3
Social media: Now social media is a mess in all aspects, period. I have read Facebook and twitter feeds from all types of entertainers that makes you want to throw out your computer, leave western civilization and become a Buddhist monk. I have also noticed that the successful mainstream girls keep it light and fun with minimum drama… there’s always gotta be some drama, let’s be real. For the most part though, they stick to keeping their followers happy with sexy pics and interesting blurbs. Now on the other hand when I read my fellow BBW colleagues tweets I usually just shake my head in disbelief or quit reading as it too painful to go on. There’s so much animosity and contempt between girls that timelines are full of shit talking, cryptic messages and personal info that really needs to stay personal. I cannot lie and say I am not guilty of the occasional shit talking or cryptic message, but I can guarantee they are few and far between and will never fill someones feed with continuously spewed bullshit. It’s truly shocking that some girls even have fans who follow them when at any point in time they can be subjected to, or even the subject of, a serious rant or tongue lashing. I think the most disturbing though is the ratchet ghettoness of someone talking about sucking dick and making her pussy cum immediately followed by many pics of her several children. Seriously? I am all about being proud of your family, but seriously? Not the time nor place.

Example #4
This example again hits on the animosity and contempt that runs between women in our industry. Below is the exact PRIVATE text that I had personally sent someone after having enough with her shenanigans…

“Hey xxxxxxxx, this is Desiree. I tried to call you but there was no answer. I am going to ask you one time nicely to please keep my name out of your mouth. I have now had 3 people come tell me that you have mentioned my name and I don’t appreciate it. I don’t know you very well but you have quite a reputation and from what I can tell, it precedes you. I am not the kind of person that will talk behind your back, you will always know what I have to say first hand. I do not in any way shape or form be associated with you. To be associated with you is to be associated with bad business and drama. xxxxx also made it clear that he didn’t want to be associated with you but yet you choose to try to use his event to promote your own, grimy. As of this moment we have no beef but if you keep on, we will. Good luck to you.”

The following day several comments pop up on her public timeline and are forwarded to me accusing me of “Texts, threatening phone calls, posting nasty comments and call outs…”! As far as I know I sent one text but there were no threats, it wasn’t public and I was very nice considering the situation. The woman, who is old enough to be my mother mind you, goes on to say “All this shit talk, all this character reference all this kindergarten sand box shit…your middle age. You won’t be in porn for ever, worry bout what happens to u after the movies over…”… that’s some good advice, but I guess it’s more of a do as I say not as I do situation since the statements that followed were full of adult rational… “Shit starters, Stank Bitches and Broke ass bumb giggas, I eat you for breakfast.”

Unfortunately I’m not immune to bits of drama but I refused to get into any kind of back and forth with this person, or any person for that matter, as I just don’t think it’s worth the time and energy. Truthfully the only reason I bring it up now is because it is an example of the common types of drama that can totally be avoided on a public level if you just handle things privately.

I am not perfect and I need to do a much better job at handling certain situations, but I still believe that at some point the BBW world will rise to the occasion and show all the people who looked down on us that we deserve to be recognized and we can be just as beautiful and sought after as any one of those mainstream girls. This is my plea to every big girl in the World… hold your head up high, be proud of who you are, show everyone around you that you value yourself and take pride in your appearance because you know you’re worth it, but most of all LoVe yourself and everyone else will follow.

My final example is pure Plus Sized beauty personified… beauty runs deep.

As always, thank you for the continued love and support! (✿◠‿◠)

Sin City Radio!

So last Sunday night I got the awesome privilege of going on the radio here in Las Vegas with the super fabulous women of The Curvaceous Bounty of Sin City! I can’t possibly begin to tell you how much fun I had… I seriously laughed so hard at points I almost piddled my pants… the broads a HE-FUCKING-LARIOUS I tell you! I am going to post the link so you too can piddle in your pants and get to know me a little bit better!

Click here to watch my interview on Ustream!

Tour Time!

So it looks like I am jumping back out into the traveling world… I will spend one more night in  LAS VEGAS until the morning of Thursday September 1st! I will then move on to Los Angeles… staying in Downey until the morning of the 5th, maybe even until the 7th! On the 7th I will move right along to San Francisco/East Bay… I will stay in Emeryville until the morning of the 10th and then over to San Leandro to stay through the 12th. On the morning of the 13th I will head to Seattle where I will stay in SeaTac through the 17th. Finally I will head to NYC on the 18th through the 24th putting me back in Phoenix on September 25th!

I am taking advanced bookings and guaranteed bookings for all cities now so please contact me as soon as possible as my time is limited. I can be contacted via email at If you have questions or would just like some general info about me you can visit! There is also a calendar on my site, please check it often to see if there are any updates.

I have posted rates though they vary by city so please contact me to find out my rate based on your city. If you have any questions about my rates please feel free to ask but do not try to low ball me as that will be the last of our communication. I am very easy-going but don’t push it! =o)

Well here goes, I’m off! I look forward to seeing you soon!

Industry Truths!

This blog is going to be kind of a hodgepodge of topics… the first being a very real look into the adult entertainment industry. When it comes to any type of work we all do it for the same reason… to make money. We have to make a living at what we do or we need to be realistic about our earning potential, or lack there of. Ladies… if you are trying to get into the adult industry as a career then you have to be very devoted. There are literally thousands of girls that come and go, they get there few little scenes and are to never be heard from again. It takes a lot of work to have any type of staying power. There are also a lot of girls who come in with big dreams, which is great but not always realistic, who try for many years to make it but just barely scrape by. Let’s face it… unless your very mainstream you’re not gonna get rich in porn. In the long run these ladies end up spending more money than they make.

Look… to me it seems so simple… if you can’t afford rent, a car, to feed your kids and/or your house is in foreclosure… you should think of making a new career choice. When you owe several people more money than you will make in the next decade… it’s time to make a change. When it comes to my own career, I’m very realistic… I know my actual earning potential and know that if I don’t make my numbers it’s because I was being lazy. Too often I see girls will that dedicate SO much time attempting to make a name for themselves that they actually end up desperate and doing things that only make it harder for themselves. If you LoVe the attention, awesome, but be realistic… maybe it should just be a hobby for you. Don’t allow yourself to be consumed by the attention… it will be your ultimate demise. The thing that you learn throughout time is that most people will waste your time. Guys will want to chat with you for hours and then go watch your movies on the free porn sites… it sucks but it’s the truth.

My final thought on this topic is that girls also need to be realistic about their age. We all have a shelf life. If you make this your career you should have a back up plan. Once you hit your mid 30’s you’re considered a MILF, which there are some super hot MILF’s, but then the next step is granny porn! I don’t know about most ladies, but I don’t plan on attempting granny porn, lol! There is also the cold hard fact that very few women enter the industry in their older years and are able to be successful, there are some, but not many. If you have been trying to make it in this business for SEVERAL years, you are getting older and you haven’t been successful… chances are you won’t. I’m not trying to be harsh, just honest. There is nothing worse than watching someone run in circles until they have run themselves and their family straight into destitution.

Secondly… the topic of sociopaths has arisen. It seems like this industry is kind of a breeding ground for them. I don’t know if it’s because a lot of us in the industry are already kind of stereotypically dysfunctional or if it’s because to do what we do you have to have a certain degree of abnormal pleasure-seeking tendencies. Either way it makes having relationships in this industry difficult to say the least. I have always know that I am indubitably flawed and because of that I always thought that knowing I am a bit crazy makes me sane. See you can always tell if someone is crazy cause they don’t know they’re crazy! A sociopath will always be a sociopath cause they lack remorse. It’s defined as a personality disorder characterized by an abnormal lack of empathy combined with abnormally immoral conduct despite an ability to appear normal.

It’s hard enough connecting with people and letting them in without having to worry if someone is who they appear to be or if it is all a big facade. I know I have been shamboozled and it’s not an easy thing to recover from. I also have good friends who have been taken for a destructive ride by a sociopath… it’s something that can change a person forever. Trust doesn’t come easily to me and now with always being skeptical of people and their ability to be honest it’s near impossible… but that doesn’t mean I won’t be open because there are good people out there, they are just few and far between. The thing that strikes me most odd about a sociopath is their ability to distort situations to make themselves look like the victim when there is such a clear path of destruction. Their audacity is astounding. When most people are found to be fraudulent they tend to scurry away and withdraw in shame, this is not the case with a sociopath, they see no fault in their actions and continue on their path of destruction.

There are many things that I LoVe about this industry… I don’t want to give the wrong impression. Doing what I do has allowed me to meet amazing, non sociopathic, people, travel, experience new worlds and most importantly share the message of size acceptance to the world. I want ALL women to know they are beautiful (period). No magazine or fashion guru will ever be able to tell me that any one of those stick figure models have the sense of self-appreciation that I feel. I have been a thin model and I know the lack of self-esteem these girls experience cause no matter how beautiful you are you are never beautiful enough… it’s a very sad circle of constant criticism.

That’s all from me tonight… so I leave you with my favorite 3 words…

LiVe. Laugh. LoVe.