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Model Advice 101 – Thrive Don’t Follow

So this post is all about being successfully independent in the adult industry. I am going to give you 5 key examples of some of the biggest mistakes models make today.

Blindly following First off, know who you are allowing to lead you. If you want to be successful then you need to emulate success. A lot of models in the industry today are just following behind the “hype” man. DO YOUR RESEARCH folks. Google is your best friend. If you think their is someone who can guide you in your career then you should know what they’ve done in theirs. They promise paid work… have they ever been paid for their work? They promise you fame and fortune… do they have an image worth mention or a pot to piss in? Have they been truly successful in their careers or is it just a bunch of fluff that THEY have put into the cyberverse? I can start my own Wiki page or easily acquire 100k+ followers on twitter… that is what is commonly referred to as hype.

Look folks, there are a lot of people out there that need you more than you need them. They don’t have a name that can stand alone so they need new faces and recognizable names to work with them to make them seem more relevant. THESE PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE YOUR BEST INTERESTS IN MIND! Moving along.

Social Media Drama NO ONE likes someone who constantly has drama. Fans don’t want to see you beefing, they want to see you being sexy or to know who’s titties you want to be motorboating. Keep it light and fun!

Potential employers or other models that you would work with for content don’t want to deal with drama so guess who they are gonna avoid shooting with in the future… yup!

Remember!!! Those who talk the most about being over the drama generally have the MOST drama. Those who are regularly “taking out the trash”, “removing toxic elements” or “cleaning house” probably have a larger than average amount of drama. If people are always on the “Why me, I’m a good person with a big heart” bandwagon, they too are probably a common drama denominator!

Don’t get pulled in by a drama filled succubus, it never turns out well. Trust me, we’ve all been there and learned the hard way.

Ego – BE HUMBLE! I get that a lot of you get into this industry for the attention. I understand that it’s nice to have people fawning all over you and paying you just to get a glimpse of you on cam or at and event… don’t let that go to your head people. I have seen women and men get a little to big for their britches and think that they are too good to put in any real work, guess where those people are now… yeah, I don’t know either.

In any industry, in any line of business you will find that the same people you shit on on your way to the top will be the same people that don’t bother lending a hand when you are in a free fall to the bottom. Karma is always watching.

Laziness 5 words: You Have To Be Invested! You have to want success, you have to feel success, you have to have the drive to go out and no matter what obstacles you face, BE SUCCESSFUL. No one is going to just hand you success, and if they did it would come with a hefty price tag. Nothing in this life is free. If you want it, you have to earn it. NO excuses. No one will ever work harder for you than you will, however, if you invest in yourself it will make others want to invest in you.

For a few years I wasn’t sure of what I wanted, what direction I wanted to go, who I wanted to be, so I got lazy. I didn’t live up to my own potential and I didn’t make the money that I knew I could make, the money that I had made for so many years before. For that, I only had myself to blame.

Wish it. Dream it. Do it.

Ignorance Much like in the first section where I mentioned doing your research, I am going to press that issue again here. So MANY models go out and shoot all the content they can and know NOTHING about contracts, model releases, 2257 laws, copyright, etc. THIS IS A BUSINESS, treat it as such. If you were going to start a bakery you would have to lease a property, file for a business license, file articles with the state for tax purposes, etc. This is YOUR business, learn how to run it. When someone shoots your content, the photographer/videographer owns that content unless otherwise agreed upon, have a contract. If you shoot content trade, get model release and 2257 documentation RIGHT THEN… don’t wait until you have a falling out with a model or he/she goes MIA and then that content is worthless. Learn copyright and branding laws so you don’t get sued… You CANNOT shoot porn with any Branded Companies product. If you shoot with lube, remove or hide the label. If you are shooting with beverages, turn the can/bottle/etc. so that the logo cannot be seen. I could go on for days, but I shan’t.

That concludes today’s Model Advice 101, I hope that some of you find it useful!

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Cal Exotics Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™

Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™

CA7_13Sooo, as I’ve stated in my previous reviews I am a HUGE fan of most things that vibrate, note I said most things…. this was not one of those things. I imagine if I was 5’5 and 98 pounds this toy would be amazing, but I’m not… I’m 6′ tall and 380 pounds. I found that with not much of a nob or handle to hold on to it was not easy to maneuver and the shorter length made it difficult to reach the important places.

I’m sorry to say that this toy was NOT fat girl friendly. I also found that this toy is for someone who has a sensitive clit, its vibration is a bit lackluster. I hate to say it, but Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™ was not my favorite review! BUT… I can’t wait for next month’s toy selection… I hope you cum again!

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging 3/5
Vibration 2/5
Quality 3/5
Visual 4/5
Cost 2.5/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers? Maybe for small girls.
Will I use this toy personally? Not likely.
Average cost of toy: $24.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 3.8(oz) / 0.11(kg)
  • 4” x 1.5”/10.25 cm x 3.75 cm (shaft)
  • 1” x 0.5”/2.5 cm x 1.25 cm (stimulator)
  • Silky soft luxurious Silicone dual massagers
  • 3 petite designs for versatile use
  • 3 powerful speeds
  • Easy push button controller
  • Silicone (massager, button) ABS with PU Cote (controller) ABS with Silver Plating (décor ring)
  • Requires 1 AA Battery

Cal Exotics Tantric Mantra™

Tantric Mantra™

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First I would like to start the review off by saying that, in most cases, I am not a big fan of multifunctional toys because the pleasure apparatuses never seem cohesive. However, for this toy I will make an exception. Though for me personally, I would prefer a more intense vibration, I liked how the free-floating pleasure beads worked in unison with the clitoral stimulator. I had to use a healthy amount of lube for the initial insertion, but then it felt amazing with the satin finish.

I can honestly say that I even thought that this toy was fat girl friendly. I had no problem with it being able to reach all the right places. I totally would also recommend this for someone who has a sensitive clit, it’s pleasurably subtle. I absolutely see why they call it the Tantric Mantra™, lol! I can’t wait for next month’s toy selection… I hope you cum again!

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging   5/5
Vibration   2.5/5
Quality       5/5
Visual        5/5
Cost          3/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers?  Yes.
Will I use this toy personally?  Absolutely
Average cost of toy:  $59.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 8(oz) / 0.23(kg)
  • 4.75” x 1.5”/12 cm x 3.75 cm (shaft)
  • 2.25” x 1”/5.75 cm x 2.5 cm (stimulator)
  • Premium Silicone dual stimulators
  • 2 speeds of independent vibration
  • 2 speeds of independent rotation, plus reverse rotation
  • Free floating mystical pleasure pearls
  • Satin Finish™ controller
  • Easy push button controls
  • Silicone (massager, buttons) ABS with PU Cote (controller) ABS with Silver Plating (décor) Stainless Steel (control panel)
  • Requires 4 AAA Batteries

Cal Exotics Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket

Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket

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This is my first installment, of many more to cum, as a Cal Exotics Sexpert. I was VERY excited to get my first toy to review so when it arrived I put it RIGHT to work! Now let me start of by saying that I am an avid bullet user. I LoVe bullets because they are discreet, easy to travel with and for a plus size girl, easy to use with a partner… I’ve also used them on my partner, lol!

When I received the Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket I opened it right away and was pleasantly surprised with how sturdy it was. The first thing I check for with a bullet is how strong the cord is and it was appropriately secure. When I put the batteries in and turned it on I wasn’t exactly jumping for joy at the massive vibration, but it wasn’t disappointing. I would say that it was average for a bullet. It’s easy to clean and it’s satin finish allows for a more secure vaginal placement.

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging   5/5
Vibration   3.5/5
Quality       5/5
Visual        5/5
Cost          4/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers?  Yes.
Will I use this toy personally?  Absolutely
Average cost of toy:  $19.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 2.3(oz) / 0.07(kg)
  • Silky smooth, swirled, turbo powered, multi-use mini stimulator with extreme vibrating and gyrating action
  • Multi-speed
  • EZ grip power pack with slide control
  • 2.5” x 1”/6.25 cm x 2.5 cm
  • Requires 3 AA Batteries

Favorite Fan Mail!

I just got my FAVORITE type of fan mail and it totally turned my day around. I want to share it with you all as this helps to assure me of why I do what I do. ♥
Most people think that I do what I do for men solely, but that was never my intention. Since the very first moment that I decided to become an adult model it was always because I wanted plus size women to know that we are beautiful and amazing. One day the world will come around and realize what I have always known, every woman is divine in every essential feature that she possesses. There is beauty in every curve, every flaw and every element in which makes us all unique and special. LoVe yourselves ladies, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

 

Dear Desiree,

I don’t know if you already get a lot of fan mail from women like me, but I just had to thank you.

Let me explain how I found you….I am a BBW and I am just discovering the term FA or fat admirer. I do not know how you feel about this term, and I am not even sure how I feel about it yet, I am just glad that there are men who find big women beautiful and aren’t too timid to admit it. I doubt this is any kind of surprise to you, since I imagine you make your living from these exact men (and women). One of the men who openly speaks about being an FA mentioned you in a video on youtube. I had no idea who you were, so I looked you up.

I have watched a couple of your videos, and I had a mixture of emotions. Of course I was turned on, but something else happened. I realized that I had no trouble finding you sexy and beautiful, that was apparent. So the immediate question that followed, was, “Why do I have such a hard time feeling that I am sexy and beautiful, especially in sexual situations?”

It made me very emotional. I have tortured myself with imaginings of how my lovers must view me when we are having sex…and my imagination has rarely given me a positive picture. I have always been so hard on myself about my appearance. Even when I knew I looked good dressed with my make up and hair flawless, and a man was showing interest, the thought would always creep in “Yes, but if he saw you naked, it would be all over.”

I am so sad that I have done this to myself for so long. I have been working very hard (in therapy) to really love and accept myself just as I am. Whether I lose or gain weight, I just want to feel love for myself It sounds so nauseatingly trite to some people, but it has taken years for me to come close to a place where I can say that I am beginning to really feel this.

I would never have suspected that a woman like yourself would be another piece of the puzzle for me. Meaning, I did not expect to feel the way that I did, after watching you perform. You are very sexy, and gave me an actual image of what a woman truly confident in her sexuality looks like. I needed that picture and I thank you for it.

Let me say, however, that I am not deluded. I understand that you probably don’t feel this way all the time, you are a human being, and we all have shitty days. I do wonder if you feel happy about the work you do, or if you feel objectified or taken advantage of in any way. Though you seem like a very self assured and powerful woman, I understand that life is complex, and the choices we make sometimes are the result of difficult pasts. Wait, I am NOT going to psychoanalyze you, I just want to be clear that I have no illusions about life. I respect you for how far you have come, and for being what appears to be, a very successful business woman.

Thank you again. I wish you happiness, wealth, and all the things you dream of. I send you love and admiration, and hope for you, all the best.

Love,
Nelle=

Thank you all for all of your love and support… it means the world to me!b4

2013 Underway!

Well we’re 15 days into the New Year and I feel like I’m knocking on death’s door. Unfortunately, I got struck down by this years flu and am just now starting to see some improvement after yesterdays venture to the ER. I am going to share with you a story about my ER experience, since it has really been my only experience of the New Year, besides being stuck in the house going through a box of tissue and a bottle of NyQuil a day.

Here was my experience:

We had seen this hospital several times in passing, as we live nearby. After being sick for 11 days, and with fever and the inability to breath, I decided it was time for the ER. I drove myself and Platinum, who was also ill, to the hospital. As we were on the freeway near the hospital we saw a billboard that said FAST ER waiting time 19 mins. We thought “Awesome” and figured we would be seen quickly. Needless to say, that billboard was GROSSLY inaccurate. We checked in at approx 1:30pm and was not called to triage until about 2:40pm. Out entire ER experience lasted about 6 hours and I did have a 1 hour breathing treatment.

While waiting in the ER I had the most heartbreaking and disturbing experience. A little old lady, 96 to be exact, was asked to go into the public women’s restroom alone to pee in a cup. I followed the lady in, after I was given some meds myself for fever. God only knows how she filled her cup, but she was crying, trying to get up from the toilet and pull up her pants. I offered her my help right away. I had her hold onto my shoulders and hoisted her up, pulled up her depends and pants, put the lid on her urine, put it in the bag and literally put my hands under her arms and carried her out to her wheelchair where her son was waiting. She had told me that she had fallen and she was afraid that she had injured her back… I cannot believe the hospital staff asked her to go in there alone. Afterwards when I brought it to the attention of the nurses they apologized to ME and told me I shouldn’t have helped her because I was already sick and could’ve hurt myself. They should’ve been apologizing to her and not made her gone alone! I was furious and disgusted how things were handled. I wasn’t trying to be a hero, I just did what I thought was right and was saddened at the fact that no one else even acknowledged the inhumanity of it all.

I understand that hospitals get busy. I also understand that this was a new area, that they were under staffed and having technical issues with the computer system. I also understand there is absolutely NO excuse that makes this situation okay. The thing is people are so wrapped up in their own shit that they don’t even realize that could’ve easily been them, their mother, grandmother or loved one. We have got to do better people.

Moving forward this year, I am going to remember this experience and make sure I always do my part. I figure the best way to strike a change is to lead by example.

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Merry Christmas!

I want to wish everyone around the World a very Merry Christmas, Happy: Yule, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, Festivus and Holidays! May your day be filled with fond memories, love and laughter. This Christmas has given me so much, and I’m not speaking in terms of material items.

For many years I have been somewhat of a Grinch and had always done my best to avoid the Holidays due to my own personal reasons. This year a few select people have helped me to see that the Holidays, though not ideal, could be a wonderful time of celebration. I have always done my best to be grateful and appreciative for everyone and everything, but I think sometimes we all get a little lost in what we wish we had. When I pulled my head out my ass, I actually realized that what I have is even better than what I was stuck hoping for.

Today I am beyond grateful for my life, in all facets. I am thankful for every lesson, every gift, every second spent with loved ones and every day that I get to wake up and start anew. I am also beyond grateful that I am able to share my life and experiences with all of you! Much love this Holiday season!
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God & The Sinner

I have never before spoken on the subject of religion, but as today is Christmas Eve, I found it fitting… I also got a message that struck up a rather interesting conversation. Most people seem to confuse me as an Atheist because I do not believe in organize religion… that is in fact inaccurate, I am not an Atheist. Atheist, by definition, is a person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being or beings… I do not. I very much believe that there is a “God” or a supreme being.

My biggest issue with religion is that it is a man-made structure of belief. There are literally thousands of religions around the world and who to say which religion is “right”? As I see it, there are about 4 people going to Heaven, lol. Then there is the issue of the Bible, also written by man, which has been written and rewritten all based off of interpretations. Once as a kid, I read the Bible, cover to cover, and seemed to understand it very differently than the way most religions teach it. I also find that some of the biggest hypocrites on Earth can be found in churches all around the World.

If so many religions preach peace, why can they not live it and accomplish it? If religion preaches love and acceptance, why are people so full of hate and judgement? If religion teaches the importance of family and togetherness then why are there foster homes, retirement homes, homes for difficult teens, etc. No one takes care of their families anymore, we just shove them off for someone else to take of them because it makes our own lives easier… SMH.

The conversation that lit this fire for me is below…

Mike Leroy Jnr
Repent from fornication and immorality porn woman remember hell is real and your body is d temple of the lord – repent now before it too late christ is knocking

Desiree Devine
LMAO… thank you for the chuckle… I needed a good laugh today! Happy Holidays!

Mike Leroy Jnr
Its not funny you may ridicule the word today but don’t regret tommorrow a word is enough for the wise

Desiree Devine
I’m not the one ridiculing sweets, that would be you. I love and accept everyone for who they are. In fact, I have read the Bible, cover to cover, have you? The same “Lord” that you are referring to states that He does not call upon the righteous as it is the sinners who need repentance… he died for the sinners… ergo Jesus loves and will embrace me even as a sinner. The Bible also states very clearly, and I quote: MATTHEW 7:1-5:

“Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull the mote out of thine eye; and behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

I am no fool. I understand better than you realize. So… please… do not worry about me and my ways as a sinner, but worry about your damnation as a hypocrite. All sins are equal in the eyes of God.

Besos

Now the gentleman has yet to respond to my last message, but I don’t assume he will. The thing about people like me who dispute religion is that we have to study more about religion than the people who claim to be religious. Funny how I have to be extensively educated about religion to dispute it, but you have to know zero about it to shove it down my throat and tell me that I shall be eternally damned. Again, SMH!

On that note, I wish coexisteveryone around the World the HAPPIEST of Holidays. May your days be filled with love and laughter!

Know Me…

I’m the secret rendezvous
Never the public display
I’m the other woman
Never the only woman
I’m the good time
Never the long time
I’m the lusted
Never the loved

I am a survivor
Never a victim
I am charitable
Never selfish
I am loyal
Never dishonest
I am valuable
Never expendable

Some say shameless whore
I say lucrative business woman
Some say barren harlot
I say healthy butterfly
Some say damaged
I say insightful
Some say licentious
I say liberated

Everyone will assess me
Most will judge me
Some will tolerate me
Few will accept me

It only takes one to love me.

Dating Disasters: “FB Busted”

So my recent experience was kind of a doozy. I had met a man who it had seemed I was meant to meet… I mean I was certain it was Kismet. To give you a little back story… I have  private and personal Facebook profile that I only add my close friends and family to. Several years ago, 4+ maybe, I had added a guy who I had known of, but we had never actually met even though we have many friends in the same circle. A couple of months ago I went through my friends list and unfriended everyone that I hadn’t met in person. So even though we ran in the same circles, because of travel and whatnot, our paths never crossed and I unfriended him.

Approximately 6 or so weeks ago, myself and several of my girlfriends went out to a local restaurant called Blueberry Hill after the club for some drunken dinner. Since I was the designated driver I was sober and sitting at the table listening to the drunken rambling when I saw a man walk in accompanied by a lady, who I had assumed was his girlfriend. When I saw him I actually said out loud “Is that _______?” I will refer to him as DA for future reference. So as I’m sitting there wondering if that had been my long time FB buddy, I saw him keep looking back at me like he recognized me as well. I still didn’t want to say anything as to not disrespect that lady he was with. As we were wrapping up and standing up to leave, I bent down to get my purse and when I stood up he was standing behind me and said “Are you Desiree?” I responded, “Are you D?” he said yes, took my number and that’s where it all began.

For the following weeks it had seemed like a warm, fuzzy dream. I loved spending time with him… I absolutely adored him. Just being around him brought me a certain peace and happiness that I hadn’t experienced in a VERY long time. I adored him and he claimed to be fond of me as well. I opened up to him telling him things I am reluctant to share with most people. I have a troubled past and it often causes complications for me in my relationships, but I was determined to make a conscious effort to overcome my issues.

Being as it was, DA is a very talented cartoonist and I had asked him to help with BBWFFlogoa project and in turn I would help him with some of his professional needs. He drew an amazing logo for the BBW FanFest and I was so impressed and thankful that I was motivated and inspired to go above and beyond to help him be successful in his work. Needless to say I ended up investing a lot more than I got in return. HOWEVER… the logo is amazing as you can see for yourself!

Now you can imagine with pretty much everything being amazing between us how utterly baffled I was to get a friend request from his GIRLFRIEND on FB. I mean REALLY? He had stayed nights and full days at my house… but when I looked at her profile, her profile picture was a picture of them together and there was this post and I quote: “Lions and Texans game has brought me quite a bit of entertainment while working on this beautiful Thanksgiving Day. Everyday I am thankful to have a job, i’m healthy, and I can go home everyday to the man I Love ____DA____”! Wow… the balls on this guy… Godzilla doesn’t have that amount of balls. It’s so crazy that he hid the fact that he LIVED with a woman so well. I was on his FB everyday and there was NO indication that he had a gf or anything.

The best part of this is when I asked him who she was and told him I was out, he got mad at ME! He asked me why I questioned who she was and said that since we weren’t in a committed relationship that it was none of my business who he lived with. LOL… this muthafucka here boy, I tell you WOOW! He had the audacity to mock my feelings and tell me “I’m sorry I hurt you so bad since you thought you were gonna marry me!” REALLY asshole? Yup, I was hurt… Yup, I felt betrayed… Yup, I let my emotions get the best of me… BUT regardless of how I feel… YOU sir are a liar and a douchebag! He continued by telling me that even if he was single he never had any intention of being in any kind of relationship with me due to my line of work. It’s funny how I was the best thing since sliced bread until you get caught in your own deception and then try to turn it around on me.

Needless to say our brief encounter came to an abrupt halt. I sent this kind assholegentleman this well deserved merit badge and applauded him for being a real class act. I told him not to worry I wouldn’t tell his gf about his douchebaggery and we could just pretend that we never ran into each other and go on with our lives as they were. I guess at this point in my life I am just over it. I will never understand why people don’t have the ability to be honest. My personal belief is that if you’re honest in the beginning then there will be no problems in the end… I guess that’s not a widespread belief. Some people can’t help but leave a trail of emotional destruction and I’m not gonna feel bad like I made it that easy to walk in and out of my life. This time it was him, not me. Deuces!

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