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I’m Baaack… kinda!

logoSo here’s the scoop! I am back in the adult business, but not in the same way as before. I am still retired from XXX modeling, though I may dip my foot back into the fetish model pool at some point – who knows, but I have returned on the other side of the camera. My amazing man and I have married our talents, him a cinematographer and I an adult entertainer, and have birthed our very own production company… Sinfully Divine Entertainment. This venture is brand new, but we have already started shooting content and are scouting for studio location around downtown Las Vegas. Exciting!!!

As part of Sinfully Divine Ent. we have teamed up with RPX After Dark to bring you some of the hottest solo site on the market. There will be a variety of options available to models including a 50/50 split option, low cost pay in full option and several payment plan options to fit your budget. The 50/50 split option will include content production, webmastering and marketing as well.

logo_bbwconAdditionally, I have entered back into the land of events. In 2012 & 2013 we brought you BBW FanFest and in 2015 we will bring you BBWcon! The official BBWcon announcement won’t be made until August 1st, so stay tuned to find out all the awesome details!

On the agenda is also the launching of BBW Hunnies! BBW Hunnies is a model management company formed and run by successful active and retired models. BBWH-LogoWe’re excited to have the experience of veterans like Farrah Foxx and the new visions of models like Sashaa Juggs to guide our endeavors. At BBWH we will help models find paid work as well as assisting with image makeovers, independent sites, self marketing and production, as well as teaching models about copyright laws and other need to know info about the adult industry. There has never before been a company that was formed to mentor girls in this industry. We have formed an extensive collaboration to pool resources and provide models, male and female, with the most valuable information available to date. We WILL NOT do the work for you, but if you want to learn how to be successful, we can guide you.

10565282_793241027377404_7582657812919395789_nI couldn’t be more excited to be in this position. It took me a long while to decide what I wanted to do, or even to decide if I wanted to separate myself from the adult world ALL together. I’ve had many discussions and have developed what I think to be THE BEST team of people to bring these visions to life.

Special thanks to Plumperpass.com for sponsoring BBWcon 2015. It wouldn’t be possible without you!

 

 

Cal Exotics Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™

Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™

CA7_13Sooo, as I’ve stated in my previous reviews I am a HUGE fan of most things that vibrate, note I said most things…. this was not one of those things. I imagine if I was 5’5 and 98 pounds this toy would be amazing, but I’m not… I’m 6′ tall and 380 pounds. I found that with not much of a nob or handle to hold on to it was not easy to maneuver and the shorter length made it difficult to reach the important places.

I’m sorry to say that this toy was NOT fat girl friendly. I also found that this toy is for someone who has a sensitive clit, its vibration is a bit lackluster. I hate to say it, but Posh® Silicone Rhythm “G”™ was not my favorite review! BUT… I can’t wait for next month’s toy selection… I hope you cum again!

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging 3/5
Vibration 2/5
Quality 3/5
Visual 4/5
Cost 2.5/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers? Maybe for small girls.
Will I use this toy personally? Not likely.
Average cost of toy: $24.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 3.8(oz) / 0.11(kg)
  • 4” x 1.5”/10.25 cm x 3.75 cm (shaft)
  • 1” x 0.5”/2.5 cm x 1.25 cm (stimulator)
  • Silky soft luxurious Silicone dual massagers
  • 3 petite designs for versatile use
  • 3 powerful speeds
  • Easy push button controller
  • Silicone (massager, button) ABS with PU Cote (controller) ABS with Silver Plating (décor ring)
  • Requires 1 AA Battery

Cal Exotics Tantric Mantra™

Tantric Mantra™

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First I would like to start the review off by saying that, in most cases, I am not a big fan of multifunctional toys because the pleasure apparatuses never seem cohesive. However, for this toy I will make an exception. Though for me personally, I would prefer a more intense vibration, I liked how the free-floating pleasure beads worked in unison with the clitoral stimulator. I had to use a healthy amount of lube for the initial insertion, but then it felt amazing with the satin finish.

I can honestly say that I even thought that this toy was fat girl friendly. I had no problem with it being able to reach all the right places. I totally would also recommend this for someone who has a sensitive clit, it’s pleasurably subtle. I absolutely see why they call it the Tantric Mantra™, lol! I can’t wait for next month’s toy selection… I hope you cum again!

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging   5/5
Vibration   2.5/5
Quality       5/5
Visual        5/5
Cost          3/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers?  Yes.
Will I use this toy personally?  Absolutely
Average cost of toy:  $59.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 8(oz) / 0.23(kg)
  • 4.75” x 1.5”/12 cm x 3.75 cm (shaft)
  • 2.25” x 1”/5.75 cm x 2.5 cm (stimulator)
  • Premium Silicone dual stimulators
  • 2 speeds of independent vibration
  • 2 speeds of independent rotation, plus reverse rotation
  • Free floating mystical pleasure pearls
  • Satin Finish™ controller
  • Easy push button controls
  • Silicone (massager, buttons) ABS with PU Cote (controller) ABS with Silver Plating (décor) Stainless Steel (control panel)
  • Requires 4 AAA Batteries

Cal Exotics Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket

Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket

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This is my first installment, of many more to cum, as a Cal Exotics Sexpert. I was VERY excited to get my first toy to review so when it arrived I put it RIGHT to work! Now let me start of by saying that I am an avid bullet user. I LoVe bullets because they are discreet, easy to travel with and for a plus size girl, easy to use with a partner… I’ve also used them on my partner, lol!

When I received the Jumpin’ Gyrator™ Mini-Rocket I opened it right away and was pleasantly surprised with how sturdy it was. The first thing I check for with a bullet is how strong the cord is and it was appropriately secure. When I put the batteries in and turned it on I wasn’t exactly jumping for joy at the massive vibration, but it wasn’t disappointing. I would say that it was average for a bullet. It’s easy to clean and it’s satin finish allows for a more secure vaginal placement.

Overall here are my ratings:
Packaging   5/5
Vibration   3.5/5
Quality       5/5
Visual        5/5
Cost          4/5
Would I recommend this toy to readers?  Yes.
Will I use this toy personally?  Absolutely
Average cost of toy:  $19.99 (MSRP)
Toy features:
  • Bulk Weight: 2.3(oz) / 0.07(kg)
  • Silky smooth, swirled, turbo powered, multi-use mini stimulator with extreme vibrating and gyrating action
  • Multi-speed
  • EZ grip power pack with slide control
  • 2.5” x 1”/6.25 cm x 2.5 cm
  • Requires 3 AA Batteries

Favorite Fan Mail!

I just got my FAVORITE type of fan mail and it totally turned my day around. I want to share it with you all as this helps to assure me of why I do what I do. ♥
Most people think that I do what I do for men solely, but that was never my intention. Since the very first moment that I decided to become an adult model it was always because I wanted plus size women to know that we are beautiful and amazing. One day the world will come around and realize what I have always known, every woman is divine in every essential feature that she possesses. There is beauty in every curve, every flaw and every element in which makes us all unique and special. LoVe yourselves ladies, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

 

Dear Desiree,

I don’t know if you already get a lot of fan mail from women like me, but I just had to thank you.

Let me explain how I found you….I am a BBW and I am just discovering the term FA or fat admirer. I do not know how you feel about this term, and I am not even sure how I feel about it yet, I am just glad that there are men who find big women beautiful and aren’t too timid to admit it. I doubt this is any kind of surprise to you, since I imagine you make your living from these exact men (and women). One of the men who openly speaks about being an FA mentioned you in a video on youtube. I had no idea who you were, so I looked you up.

I have watched a couple of your videos, and I had a mixture of emotions. Of course I was turned on, but something else happened. I realized that I had no trouble finding you sexy and beautiful, that was apparent. So the immediate question that followed, was, “Why do I have such a hard time feeling that I am sexy and beautiful, especially in sexual situations?”

It made me very emotional. I have tortured myself with imaginings of how my lovers must view me when we are having sex…and my imagination has rarely given me a positive picture. I have always been so hard on myself about my appearance. Even when I knew I looked good dressed with my make up and hair flawless, and a man was showing interest, the thought would always creep in “Yes, but if he saw you naked, it would be all over.”

I am so sad that I have done this to myself for so long. I have been working very hard (in therapy) to really love and accept myself just as I am. Whether I lose or gain weight, I just want to feel love for myself It sounds so nauseatingly trite to some people, but it has taken years for me to come close to a place where I can say that I am beginning to really feel this.

I would never have suspected that a woman like yourself would be another piece of the puzzle for me. Meaning, I did not expect to feel the way that I did, after watching you perform. You are very sexy, and gave me an actual image of what a woman truly confident in her sexuality looks like. I needed that picture and I thank you for it.

Let me say, however, that I am not deluded. I understand that you probably don’t feel this way all the time, you are a human being, and we all have shitty days. I do wonder if you feel happy about the work you do, or if you feel objectified or taken advantage of in any way. Though you seem like a very self assured and powerful woman, I understand that life is complex, and the choices we make sometimes are the result of difficult pasts. Wait, I am NOT going to psychoanalyze you, I just want to be clear that I have no illusions about life. I respect you for how far you have come, and for being what appears to be, a very successful business woman.

Thank you again. I wish you happiness, wealth, and all the things you dream of. I send you love and admiration, and hope for you, all the best.

Love,
Nelle=

Thank you all for all of your love and support… it means the world to me!b4

God & The Sinner

I have never before spoken on the subject of religion, but as today is Christmas Eve, I found it fitting… I also got a message that struck up a rather interesting conversation. Most people seem to confuse me as an Atheist because I do not believe in organize religion… that is in fact inaccurate, I am not an Atheist. Atheist, by definition, is a person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being or beings… I do not. I very much believe that there is a “God” or a supreme being.

My biggest issue with religion is that it is a man-made structure of belief. There are literally thousands of religions around the world and who to say which religion is “right”? As I see it, there are about 4 people going to Heaven, lol. Then there is the issue of the Bible, also written by man, which has been written and rewritten all based off of interpretations. Once as a kid, I read the Bible, cover to cover, and seemed to understand it very differently than the way most religions teach it. I also find that some of the biggest hypocrites on Earth can be found in churches all around the World.

If so many religions preach peace, why can they not live it and accomplish it? If religion preaches love and acceptance, why are people so full of hate and judgement? If religion teaches the importance of family and togetherness then why are there foster homes, retirement homes, homes for difficult teens, etc. No one takes care of their families anymore, we just shove them off for someone else to take of them because it makes our own lives easier… SMH.

The conversation that lit this fire for me is below…

Mike Leroy Jnr
Repent from fornication and immorality porn woman remember hell is real and your body is d temple of the lord – repent now before it too late christ is knocking

Desiree Devine
LMAO… thank you for the chuckle… I needed a good laugh today! Happy Holidays!

Mike Leroy Jnr
Its not funny you may ridicule the word today but don’t regret tommorrow a word is enough for the wise

Desiree Devine
I’m not the one ridiculing sweets, that would be you. I love and accept everyone for who they are. In fact, I have read the Bible, cover to cover, have you? The same “Lord” that you are referring to states that He does not call upon the righteous as it is the sinners who need repentance… he died for the sinners… ergo Jesus loves and will embrace me even as a sinner. The Bible also states very clearly, and I quote: MATTHEW 7:1-5:

“Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull the mote out of thine eye; and behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

I am no fool. I understand better than you realize. So… please… do not worry about me and my ways as a sinner, but worry about your damnation as a hypocrite. All sins are equal in the eyes of God.

Besos

Now the gentleman has yet to respond to my last message, but I don’t assume he will. The thing about people like me who dispute religion is that we have to study more about religion than the people who claim to be religious. Funny how I have to be extensively educated about religion to dispute it, but you have to know zero about it to shove it down my throat and tell me that I shall be eternally damned. Again, SMH!

On that note, I wish coexisteveryone around the World the HAPPIEST of Holidays. May your days be filled with love and laughter!

Dating Disasters: “FB Busted”

So my recent experience was kind of a doozy. I had met a man who it had seemed I was meant to meet… I mean I was certain it was Kismet. To give you a little back story… I have  private and personal Facebook profile that I only add my close friends and family to. Several years ago, 4+ maybe, I had added a guy who I had known of, but we had never actually met even though we have many friends in the same circle. A couple of months ago I went through my friends list and unfriended everyone that I hadn’t met in person. So even though we ran in the same circles, because of travel and whatnot, our paths never crossed and I unfriended him.

Approximately 6 or so weeks ago, myself and several of my girlfriends went out to a local restaurant called Blueberry Hill after the club for some drunken dinner. Since I was the designated driver I was sober and sitting at the table listening to the drunken rambling when I saw a man walk in accompanied by a lady, who I had assumed was his girlfriend. When I saw him I actually said out loud “Is that _______?” I will refer to him as DA for future reference. So as I’m sitting there wondering if that had been my long time FB buddy, I saw him keep looking back at me like he recognized me as well. I still didn’t want to say anything as to not disrespect that lady he was with. As we were wrapping up and standing up to leave, I bent down to get my purse and when I stood up he was standing behind me and said “Are you Desiree?” I responded, “Are you D?” he said yes, took my number and that’s where it all began.

For the following weeks it had seemed like a warm, fuzzy dream. I loved spending time with him… I absolutely adored him. Just being around him brought me a certain peace and happiness that I hadn’t experienced in a VERY long time. I adored him and he claimed to be fond of me as well. I opened up to him telling him things I am reluctant to share with most people. I have a troubled past and it often causes complications for me in my relationships, but I was determined to make a conscious effort to overcome my issues.

Being as it was, DA is a very talented cartoonist and I had asked him to help with BBWFFlogoa project and in turn I would help him with some of his professional needs. He drew an amazing logo for the BBW FanFest and I was so impressed and thankful that I was motivated and inspired to go above and beyond to help him be successful in his work. Needless to say I ended up investing a lot more than I got in return. HOWEVER… the logo is amazing as you can see for yourself!

Now you can imagine with pretty much everything being amazing between us how utterly baffled I was to get a friend request from his GIRLFRIEND on FB. I mean REALLY? He had stayed nights and full days at my house… but when I looked at her profile, her profile picture was a picture of them together and there was this post and I quote: “Lions and Texans game has brought me quite a bit of entertainment while working on this beautiful Thanksgiving Day. Everyday I am thankful to have a job, i’m healthy, and I can go home everyday to the man I Love ____DA____”! Wow… the balls on this guy… Godzilla doesn’t have that amount of balls. It’s so crazy that he hid the fact that he LIVED with a woman so well. I was on his FB everyday and there was NO indication that he had a gf or anything.

The best part of this is when I asked him who she was and told him I was out, he got mad at ME! He asked me why I questioned who she was and said that since we weren’t in a committed relationship that it was none of my business who he lived with. LOL… this muthafucka here boy, I tell you WOOW! He had the audacity to mock my feelings and tell me “I’m sorry I hurt you so bad since you thought you were gonna marry me!” REALLY asshole? Yup, I was hurt… Yup, I felt betrayed… Yup, I let my emotions get the best of me… BUT regardless of how I feel… YOU sir are a liar and a douchebag! He continued by telling me that even if he was single he never had any intention of being in any kind of relationship with me due to my line of work. It’s funny how I was the best thing since sliced bread until you get caught in your own deception and then try to turn it around on me.

Needless to say our brief encounter came to an abrupt halt. I sent this kind assholegentleman this well deserved merit badge and applauded him for being a real class act. I told him not to worry I wouldn’t tell his gf about his douchebaggery and we could just pretend that we never ran into each other and go on with our lives as they were. I guess at this point in my life I am just over it. I will never understand why people don’t have the ability to be honest. My personal belief is that if you’re honest in the beginning then there will be no problems in the end… I guess that’s not a widespread belief. Some people can’t help but leave a trail of emotional destruction and I’m not gonna feel bad like I made it that easy to walk in and out of my life. This time it was him, not me. Deuces!

Click here to listen to this blog narrated by me!

ONLY 11 HRS LEFT!

There is ONLY 11 MORE HOURS until the END of the SUPER Early Bird Special! DON’T MISS 30% OFF PLUS a FREE BONUS! Visit http://bbwfanfest.com to purchase you tickets! Booth space and attendee packages starting as low as $99!

The turn out of this years event has already surpassed our expectations and we are overjoyed by the positive response we have received from models and fans alike. I CANNOT wait for this… it’s gonna be EPIC!

A couple of other things we are working on…

  1. Model Affiliate Program – Models get paid off of your fan referrals! (Coming in Dec.)
  2. Categories announced and award nominations begin Monday, Nov. 26th!
  3. Models will soon have a chance to WIN a booth at BBW FanFest 2013 – STAY TUNED!
  4. BBW FanFest will be sponsoring an AVN party… details coming soon!

There is so much going on… all I can say is STAY TUNED, LOL!

As always, thank you for your LoVe and support! XoXo Desi

BBW FanFest Super Early Bird Specials!

BBW FanFest Super Early Bird Specials will open Nov. 19th at 12 am and last for ONLY 72 HOURS! 30% OFF (booths space for models and vendors as well as attendee packages) PLUS every purchase will include a 2-Day Well Rounded LV entry! STAY TUNED FOR MORE DETAILS!

Shooting for BBW Buffet!

Today I did my first shoot with Reenaye Starr for BBWBuffet.com! It was the first time I have done a shoot for a feeder site, but I had a good time! I REALLY enjoyed working with Reenaye and her business partner. I also had a lot of fun doing my sets with Platinum Puzzy… it was at some points VERY difficult to keep a straight face, lol!

Here’s a pic that was taken by Platinum of Reenaye shooting me… good times!

I’m not sure when the first set will be posted on the site, but I will definitely keep y’all up to date.

I am heading off in the morning to shoot for RedHotPhatGirlz.com! It’s been quite awhile since I last shot for them, but I’m sure it’ll be fun… I’ll post a pic from the shoot on my twitter so make sure you check in… twitter.com/desireedevine!

As always… thank you all SO MUCH for all of your LoVe and support! TTYS