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East Coast Tour 2012

If you’re wondering if the rumors are true about Platinum Puzzy and I doing an East Coast Tour are true or not, let me help clarify… YES, it’s true! Plat and I have teamed up once again and are making our way up the East Coast. We are starting off our tour here in Jacksonville, Fl and eventually ending back in Las Vegas, with MANY stops along the way! I am going to list the first half of the dates below for the month of August and later I will post an update with September dates.

August 2012 Dates

1-3 Jacksonville, FL
3-5 Tampa, FL
5-8 Ft. Lauderdale/Miami
8-10 Orlando, FL
10-14 Atlanta, GA
14-17 Raleigh/Durham, NC
17-21 Norfolk, VA
21-31 DC/NY

For scheduling, calendar, Q&A and donation information please refer to www.DesireeOnDemand.com!

For booking please email me at desireedevine@gmail.com.
Two girl sessions and discounts for extended time is available.

The map below shows all the cities we will stop in, cross-country dates are to be determined and will be posted within the next week.

We look forward to seeing you during our travels!

Fuckin’ Perfect!

Lately I have been going through somewhat of a slump. The change of coming off the road and trying to settle down in a new place has not been an easy one for me. I miss the constant go and the new adventures. I miss the freedom of not being attached to a lease and being free to up and go on a whim… and mostly, I miss the company. When you live in one place, people have routines and lives that absorb their time and the excitement of hanging out, though it’s always awesome, tends to wear off a bit.

However, the BEST thing about being in THIS place is the AMAZING friends I have here. I have great old friends and have gained some phenomenal new ones as well. Though this is a huge change for me and is taking some getting used to, I don’t think I would have it any other way.

During my little funk I realized how fucking spectacular my friends really were when one posted this song on my Facebook. Have you ever heard a song that you could have sworn was written JUST for you? Well this one is ours. SO… I want to share this with ALL of my amazing friends and let you know that you are nothing less than fucking perfect… period… and when you’re lost and you have forgotten how spectacular you are, just have another listen!

Here are the lyrics:

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss “no way it’s all good”
It didn’t slow me down
Always second guessing
Look, I’m still around…

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

You’re so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you do the same

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

The world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try, try, try
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less then, fuckin’ perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing you’re fuckin’ perfect, to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing you’re fucking perfect to me

2010… Reflections…

Well, it’s officially New Year’s Eve… the very last day of 2010! This is my diary of reflection… it may take a bit so you may want to grab a beverage and get comfy!

This year has been one of the longest yet shortest years of my life. Though time felt as if it was racing by, soooo much has happened. I would LoVe to tell you that  it was all glory and roses but, as you know, I’m no chimney so blowing smoke is not my specialty. However, this year DEFINITELY has had its high points, and those very points have made all of the rest worth it. I learned a long time ago that you have to go through what you need to to get to where you want to be. The struggles in life make us appreciate the blessings… plus there is a natural balance to life, the ebb and flow of the universe guarantees that we will have our ups and downs.

The year started off strong out of the gate! I spent the first half touring the East Coast… finding a new LoVe for NYC and NJ… then the other half touring the upper and mid sections of the U.S. Along my path I met some AMAZING people, dropped some feckless and hindering baggage,  partied like a rock star, found myself, laughed, cried, hurt, healed and discovered my life’s true passion. I have always known what my passion was for, I just could never figure out how to go about implementing it.

I got into the adult industry a few years ago, not because I thought having sex on camera was my life’s calling, but because I wanted to help show the world that it is ok to be proud of who you are and that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. I wanted to open people’s eyes to see the error in societies flawed sense of what makes a woman’s body beautiful. It has always been my belief that beauty is not just skin deep, but it radiates from the most inner core of the soul. I discovered long ago that my way of doing things is generally opposite of everyone else’s way of doing them… which is ok… it just means more work on my part, lol!

A lot of people think that because I am an adult entertainer that I am less than human. That I somehow was forced into making this awful decision… and though I HATE to admit that I fall into most of the stereotypical scenarios of a standard porn chick… I do. I am severely flawed and dysfunctional. I have never denied my issues, in fact… quite the opposite. I embrace my issues as a part of who I am. My flaws make me human and I am perfectly ok with that. Having as many issues as I do removes any pressure to try to be perfect. I am flawed, therefore I am expected to fuck up! Though I don’t go around messing things up because I am expected to, I also don’t beat myself up when I do. I take each situation as a learning experience and try to implement the lessons I learn in other aspects of my life. My issues are also what allows me to do what I do without any sense of emotional attachment.

As most everyone knows, I have been single for a very long time and though I have found LoVe, I am always hesitant to let someone into my dark world. This year, because of my move to AZ, I ended up spending Christmas day alone on my sofa watching Netflix. Of course I corresponded via text, internet and phone, it was a pretty long day of solitude. Because, as two friends pointed out, I am an emotional cutter, I decided that on Christmas day I was going to face a few of my past demons, I watched “Precious”.  I have been avoiding this movie for a VERY long time because I knew that when I watched it it would bring up some of my own extremely painful and difficult memories. I have tried very hard as an adult to put my past behind me, but one thing I have learned throughout the years is that by stuffing all of the ugly history away, we give it power. When things are all out in the open and laying there in front of you… they just don’t seem so powerful anymore. The more we face our fears, the less afraid we become.

On Christmas day I faced my childhood head on… and it was liberating. Though I cried like a toddler and felt like my chest was going to cave in, I realized that things can always be worse. I dried my face, took a deep breath and became surprisingly thankful for the events of my childhood. The things I went through have made me the person I am today and today I can say I LoVe me. I am content with who I am and can proudly say that I have lived. I have lived MY life on MY terms and wouldn’t have it any other way. There are a lot of people who stand back and feel ok with judging me for my choices… but they were MY choices to make. I am not ashamed of anything that I have done, like I said before… it will all help mold me into the person I am meant to become.

The one on ONLY thing I have ever been 100% certain of in my entire life was that I wanted to do something or be someone who could/would help other people learn how to be ok with who they are. I used to want to be a youth counselor but I don’t ever think I could come to terms with having to interact with an abuser. I know that abuse is most of the time a cycle, and that an abuser is generally themselves a victim of abuse… it just never registered with me how someone who has gone through that kind of pain could inflict it on others. It wasn’t until I was older and “different” that I discovered the desire to help people with their body image… it all starts with working from the inside out. If you are beautiful inside it will show outside.

In the last few months I have been EXTREMELY blessed. I have moved to a place I am growing to LoVe, finally received some MUCH needed medical insurance and have some place that I can finally call home… it’s not much, but it’s ALL mine! I have greater friends than I could have ever asked for, LoVe that keeps me grounded and stable, health, though not perfect by any means, I am alive and able to take care of myself… that’s all anyone can rally ask for. I have found work that I am SOOOO passionate about and that I LoVe whole heartedly. I feel that in this moment my life is full and complete… there is very little more that I could ask for.

In the coming year I will be making a lot of personal life changes and making some very difficult transitions. I am very excited about my new direction… it has been such a long time since I was filled with so much passion. I guess it comes when you truly believe in what you’re doing. Though changes are not always easy, my hope is that people will continue to support me through them and enjoy the journey with me. I almost feel like I am, yet again, getting a second chance at life and I refuse to not grab it by the horns and hold on as long a humanly possible.

For all of those who were a part of my life in 2010, thank you… thank you for being a part of my journey… god or bad. Without you I would not be where I am today and have the wisdom of the past to guide me in my future. I look forward to the New Year with new beginning and new goals. I give thanks to the past years for all of the lessons and memories that I will take with me into each new day. My this New Year bring peace and prosperity to the world and may we learn how to let go of all of the negative, as it will only keep us from our own happiness.

From me to you… have a safe and blessed New Year!

XoXoXo, DD

Come Party w/ ME NYE 2011!

Come party with ME and my Club Fullfilled friends NYE, Dec.31st here in beautiful Phoenix AZ! What’s better than bringing in the New Year with FUN and friends! Join me for a special champagne toast at midnight and, if you’re lucky, maybe we’ll meet under the mistletoe!

Click the flyer below to see it in poster size!

Meet our amazing bartender extraordinaire Bronco!

Visit ClubFULLfilled.com for more info and prepay via Paypal for a special event discount… I hope to see YOU ALL there!

My Picture…

As I sit here in my new Arizona apartment, alone and quiet, watching movies of love lost and then found, I am overwhelmed by emotion. It has been a long time since I last wrote, but not because I was too busy, but more because I could not find my words. The only time I have ever been able to write is when I feel what I have to say matters… maybe not to the general population but to me or someone who may need to hear my words at that exact moment in time. This blog may be a bit lengthy but I am going to take you on a very personal journey, one that I have lived over the last several months.

As most everyone knows I have been traveling, as some would say a nomad, for  quite some time. In my heart I had no real purpose or direction. It was quite an adventure, one that I wish everyone got to experience at least once in their lifetime. I have traveled all over the country and have met some amazing, and some not so amazing, people along the way. I have seen how people eat, live, talk, believe and love all over the country. With this being the United States it’s so funny to observe how separate we really are. The discrimination I have witness is appalling in this day and age as is the quality of human relationships. In fact just the other day I had a long conversation with someone about how the natural order of the universe has been thrown off-balance by the human race, how we have created thing that are unnatural and that is why the world is in such turmoil. Even things like language has divided our world and broken down our lines of communication… for example, animals from anywhere in the world can communicate just fine. Do you think when a dog from Lebanon comes to the States and barks at another dog he thinks “Dude… I don’t speak that woof!” NO, one woof is as good as the next, they communicate without missing a beat. However, on the other end of that I have seen boundless generosity, people who have given their last dollar to someone because they knew they needed it more, I have seen timeless love, when looks have faded, sex has subsided and everything annoying about a person has come to light… 30 years later they couldn’t imagine living one day without each other.

I have been blessed to know people from all walks of life… different shapes, sizes, colors, religion, sexual orientations, cultures and so on. Knowing all of these people and being open to learn from them has given me a gift that I wish I could share with the world… it has given me perspective. See for me I get to look at the world through a looking-glass… I get to stand back and see the WHOLE picture, not just the part of the picture that fits into a small frame. When I look at life I see just how insignificant things are on the grand scale. I see that compared to the universe, earth is like a grain of sand and if you were to think of earth’s existence in a 24 hour time span it has only been created in the last 7 seconds. When you look at things on a larger scale you can really put them in perspective. I know that at some points in time my perspective has been skewed and I have closed myself into that tiny box that I am always trying to burn. I can’t see the big picture because I am to busy trying to get the frame to fit… the problem is the picture doesn’t need to fit the frame, the frame needs to fit the picture.

A lot has happened to me in the last several months. I hate to say that it hasn’t all been positive, but I can say that I have lived and learned. I can also say that I have laughed til I’ve cried and opened my heart to receive. For me, like many, when I get hurt or burned I try to close up like a clam and not let anyone else in hopes that staying guarded will keep my heart safe, but truthfully the only thing it really does is keep your heart lonely. I guess for me the saying “It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.” is true. I also think that we have to go through the bad times to appreciate the good ones. I just wish that it didn’t always take so long for me to remember these lessons when things happen. I would love it if I had a little directory to refer to when situation occurred to show me a similar situation, the outcome and lessons learned.

It has taken me to get to this moment to really reflect on the past months to see how trivial everything has really been. I have focused my time in attention on people and things of little importance instead of focusing on the issues that affect the big picture. I had known for quite some time that I had not been feeling well and instead of listening to my body I continued to press on in hopes that I would one day wake up and feel better… of course it just continued to get worse until I found myself with some pretty serious health issues and having to grow roots and seek treatment. One thing I forget a lot of the time is that we are all pictures within a bigger picture and unless we take care of ourselves we won’t be there to complete our part. Too often people leave this world too early and never get the chance to make their mark. I don’t want to be one of those people. Though I am not afraid of death, I want my life to have meant something even if it means that helped 1 person feel good about who they were or that despite my many flaws I was a good person… to me that would be enough.

So… for the next year I will be living around Phoenix Arizona, so if anyone is near here please reach out and say hello. I have also teamed up with a great girl, Christylee, to do plus size club promotions and events starting with the existing Club Fullfilled! I’ve VERY excited about this new partnership, especially since I will be doing something I LoVe and have wanted to do for several years. There will be more info to follow on the club so stay tuned. At the end of the day you have to take hold of your own paintbrush and design the mark you want to make on the world. Personally, I want my mark to be beautiful and full of light and soul, not dark and filled with anger and regret. I am making a vow to lighten my spirit by letting go of the negative and dedicating my picture to LoVe, LiFe and Laughter!

Going Back 2 Cali Tour!

I know I’m a bit late getting this up but here it is, better late than never, right!

Today Thunder Katt and I hit Chicago and are LOVING it so far… Chitown is living up to its hospitable name! We will be here through the 7th so DON’T miss your chance to meet up with your favorite BBW pornstars! Thunder Katt and I are meeting fans individually or as a savage tag team, LOL! If you’ve always wondered what it would be like to ride the curves of a BIG beauty, or 2, then come on though and make your dreams cum true!

If you just want to meet up and say hello, I am offering individual meet and greets for a small donation of $50… come chill, have a drink and get a personalized autographed 6×9 picture of yours truly along with a photo of us together!

For more details check out DesireeOnDemand.com! Hope to see you soon!